Tuesday, June 9, 2009

granny burns

God is so good in so many ways

some of the ways we experience, see, touch, hear and taste God is through people.

he allows relationships in our lives that leave 'indelible imprints' that cannot be erased. as my father would often say when i was young, things and people you never forget 'in this world or the world to come.

'i am grateful for the few people God has allowed me to know and interact with, even at a young age, that have made lasting impressions, indelible imprints, on my life.

as i grow older, it seems that those who were most influential, were such in my younger years. (there is a lesson in there somewhere)

the fondest memories i have are of when i was most young.

one the people who have made such an impact in my life and influenced my spirit was a long time member of my dads church, sis ruth burns, but my little brother and i knew her as 'granny burns!'

granny burns passed yesterday.

yes, she was a faithful member. yes, she was an involved and influential member. yes, she was a supporter of my father and the ministry but i remember granny burns for personal reasons above all else.

granny burns was the grandmother i never had. both of my maternal grandmothers passed away before i had the opportunity to know them.

we loved us some granny burns!

granny burns lived on the street over from us when we lived in fifth ward. we would play on her porch! we would run around her house! granny burns could burn! she was a master in the kitchen, old school style!

our family had a 'tradition' with granny burns growing up. every new years day, between dad preaching at the prayer bowl at pleasant grove missionary baptist church (which was an all day thing!) we would go over to granny burns house, to sit, talk, share, fellowship, cook and eat! alan and i would play till our hearts delight. watch cartoons in her back room. play checkers in the front room, play on her front porch, or just sit and listen to the adult conversations going on in the living room.

these were days of extended family, not just blood family but spiritual family. no iphones, no sidekicks, no wii's, no xboxs or playstations. these were times of fun that required human interaction and presented family fellowship.

thats why i remember granny burns voice and smile. i remember her kind and gentle spirit. i do not remember her ever raising her voice, but she was firm when need be. she was even gentle when being strong.

i remember her cooking. i remember not being tall enough to look up and see what she was doing on the stove! i remember the big black cast iron skillet that she cooked the best ever hot water cornbread (which she took time out to teach me how to cook!). i remember the big silver pot that held the greens (and the 'potlicker' that came from them!). ii remember the sound of the grease crackling when she put in the chicken wings to fry. i can see her now standing there, with her apron on, smiling at me, as she cooked away on the hot stove.

i remember the smell of the house. i remember the plastic strips on the floor and on the chairs and couch in the living room. i remember the tv with the knob and antenna!...and out of all of this, i remember the feeling of love in the house and in everything that was done and said.

i remember how we would run around in the house. i remember how we would watch cartoons on the television with the knob and antennae in the back room. i remember we would play checkers in the front room. i remember we would sit and listen to the adults conversate in the living room (oh, did i say this already? lol! only because this means so much to me now)...i remember always being excited to go and spend time at granny burns house.

i remember her touch. she had a way of calming and soothing my spirit whenever i had asthma troubles, with just a back rub and a glass of water. granny burns had a nurturing spirit. she would talk to us. she would listen to us. she would interact with us. she would engage us. she would let us be children and push us to be men.

mount corinth and for sure vacation bible school is going to miss her. fifth ward is going to miss her. the patterson family is going to miss her. i am going to miss her. correction, i already miss her but her life is 'indelibly imprinted' in mine.

i wonder, as i reminisce about granny burns, who is the person, or the people, who have made an 'indelible imprint' in your life? how do you remember them? what kind of impact have they made in your life? who are you and what are you doing as a result?

whose life are you making an 'indelible imprint' in?

who will remember you like this, after you are gone on?

what kind of 'indelible imprint' are you making in someone elses life?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

her eyes

she has eyes like an egyptian goddess, they always draw u n

she has eyes
that see right thru me
she has eyes
that talk silently 2 me

she has eyes that pray 4 me
she has eyes like a ride or die chick u see

she has eyes that pierce my soul

she has eyes like the starlets of old, so powerful, so bold

like sophia lauren, big and bright, wanting 2 b my friend
like lauren bacall, medium n tight, ready 2 brawl
like jackie o, eyes of class n style, eyes that always make me smile

she has eyes, like I want n my child

she has eyes that I want 2 wake up 2

she has eyes that I want 2 make up 2

she has eyes that turn me on

she has eyes that tell me I am the one

her eyes r sometime sad, but most times full of fun

her eyes always lift me up n tell me I can

her eyes make me feel like I am the man

her eyes, r a prize
2 b treasured
2 b loved

her eyes r a gift of God, not of man

I've seen her eyes and can't settle 4 less
so ill just b patient n wait 4 God 2 bless...
me with, her eyes

Sunday, May 24, 2009

next time

note: inspired by and written 2 the rhythm of 'next time' by john legend ...cop that cd evolver!

next time
i fall in love

next time
i see your face
i will embrace

the grace gift you are too me
the wind beneath my wings

the sunshine, throughout my day
the laughter, like kids at play
the smile you put on my face

next time
i will adore

the way you walk thru the door
the way you keep me wanting for more
the power of your allure

next time
i will say

its you who made my every day
its you who for whom i would pay
anything for you too stay

for now
i wish you the best
you are better than the rest

congratulations on your baby
i wanted her to look like me
wanted us to be a family

now i wont because of me
but

next time
i want it all

next time
ill take a chance
step out on love and romance

next time
will be my last dance

next time
ill make it last

next time
i wont go so fast

next time
we'll take it slow

next time
i want you to know
wherever you are, i want to go

next time
i won't let you leave
it's just you and me

underneath the trees
living in the breeze

next time
will be the last time
there will be you without me

Monday, April 13, 2009

2009 Easter Weekend Of LOVE!

Preamble!...
  • like my Morehouse brother and lead Pastor of Courageous Church in atlanta, georgia, i've had 'the runs' too, except all weekend! it's part consequence of the end of a 40-day fast, with the last 7 days doing nothing but water and a detox 'juice cocktail!' ...gotta love the prune juice! lol! :-)
  • this lent season fast has brought me closer to God than i have ever been, more sensitive to the leading, urging and even conviction of the Holy Spirit and less tolerable of things that are not of God, including negative attitudes and destructive behaviors!
  • i have also lost some weight! HA-LE-LU-JAH! LOL! during the last year or so, i have gained considerable weight due to the side effects of medication i 'was' taking but do not take anymore! decided to go 'cold turkey' and trust God for healing! ...SIDEBAR: you never know what a person is going thru or dealing with, privately. it is insensitve to speak before you know!
  • the physical goal? FINE IN '09! ...watch out summertime!

Ok, now that I have told you some personal stuff (you probably didn't want to hear - TMI!... but, if you would like the 'detox liquid diet' recipe, hit me up) let me share some tidbits about The Love Church's Easter Weekend!

Friday...
  • friday noon, i had the privilege of speaking at the St John Church in grand prairie, texas where denny d. davis is the senior pastor. what a church! it was the traditional baptist 'seven last sayings' of Christ on the cross service. i had the 'third word.' - John 19:26-27 paraphrased 'when Jesus saw His mother and the disciple standing there at the cross, He said 26 'Woman, behold your son' and to the disciple whom He loved, 'Son, behold your mother.' 27 And from that moment forward that disciple took her to his own home.'
  • i continue 2 b n awe @ how God uses me, when i know i do not deserve it. it brings me 2 tears everytime.
  • friday nite kicked off Easter Weekend Of LOVE for the church with a showing of the record breaking 'The Passion Of The Christ!' producer mel gibson, hit this one out of the park! you cannot watch this movie with an open heart and mind and not be moved in some way!
  • people were emotionally moved @ the graphic portrayal of the brutal treatment directed of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
  • a number of people shared their minds had been opened and their spirits had been touched by the pictoral demonstration of the suffering of Jesus, on the way 2 and on the cross!
  • the attendance was not what i would have liked, but the results 4 people there was all i could ever ask 4! ...we r looking @ better promoting the movie showing 4the month of april 2 coincide with the preaching series... Fireproof! ...u know i have 2 say this... it's gonna b FIYAH! (no pun intended! ok, yes it was! lol!)
Saturday...
  • men's breakfast @ furr's! shout out 2 furr's on 635N and centerville! discount time!
  • good attendance, great Bible lesson and said good food! ...i was on the last day of my 40-day fast! could only watch the men eat! ...the jackson 5 had a song out once, 'it's torture!' lol!
  • it is good when men, real men, can get 2gether, eat, fellowship, learn and share. it was a great time early n the morning!
Resurrection Sunday!...
  • i have been anticipating easter sunday morning all week! my spirit has been on FIYAH and ready 2 burn some stuff up!
  • the worship experience led by sister danetta turner and sis creshunda moore, 2 krazy anointed voices and spirits with krazy fire! they both sang as if their lives depended on it! the spirit was in the place!
  • sis yolandra johnson ministered 2 us through interpretive dance! her spirit of worship and anointing n dance is contagious! God moved the crowd thru her movements!
  • the children and youth presented a 'skit' that was disciplined and Bible based! no one 'messed up' their lines! they all spoke with clarity and authority! everyone represented! i am so proud of our children & youth and their continued growth n the Lord! great job sis lemmons!
  • i preached a sermon entitled 'I'm A Witness!' from John 19:26-27 when Jesus gave His mother 2 John and gave John 2 His mother... there are times n preaching when u feel it and when u don't. well, i felt it! lol! ...if one more person had 'bum-rushed' the pulpit, i would have gone running myself! ...it was so good, they kept telling 2 go on and don't stop! :-)
  • i thank God 4 all who help tireless and unpaid 2 make each Sunday a success... the LOVE ambassadors, the source media team, the musicians (the LOVE pound!), the voices of judah praise team, the ministers and everyone who chips n when and wherever needed, with a smile and lots of LOVE!
  • we took time out 2 celebrate and remember the sacrifice of Jesus by taking communion. communion is always a sobering and cleansing experience. i thank God for a church full of hearts that seek Him, sincerely.
  • i love my church! there is non other like the LOVE church! it aint nothing but LOVE!
  • i salute all proclaimers who stood tall on easter to tell a dying world about a living Savior!
  • the church rolls on and Christ still lives! God is!...
  • ...at THE LOVE CHURCH, there may b some bigger, but there ain't none better, because @ THE LOVE CHURCH we ain't got nothing but LOVE 4 u! ;-)
...remember, whatever u r facing n life, u r ...greatly blessed, highly favored and deeply loved!

livng in the love,
pastor p

Saturday, December 6, 2008

i believe

mark 9:23-24 Jesus said to him, "if you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes." 24 immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, "Lord, i believe; help my unbelief!"

have u ever wanted 2 believe somebody but just couldnt? u tried n ur mind but couldnt. the thoughts just didnt add up. u tried n ur emotions but couldnt. just didnt 'feel' them. u even tried n ur spirit but never experienced any peace about it.

have u ever believe and not believed at the same time? have you ever wanted to but couldnt? have you ever believed but doubted?

ive consistently heard my dad say, im just 'raising intelligent questions of the text.' may i raise an intelligent question of the text and our lives as well? is it really belief if we doubt? must we believe 100% for it 2 b belief? can we believe and doubt at the same time?

this text clearly shows us a man whom 'believed and doubted!' but what makes this text so interesting and inspiring is that this man is talking to Jesus! the man was saying in essence, ive gone as far as i can go in my human belief efforts, so Lord do what i cannot do, in the area of my belief struggle.

i honestly believe this man was saying to Jesus, if you find any area where my belief is weak and needs propping up, needs support, help me in that area! what if we genuinely asked the Lord to take us 2 higher levels n areas that we experience weakness and unbelief?

our human nature wants 2 doubt, but our spirit man wants 2 believe! the fight is on! who will win n ur life? nature or spirit? doubt or belief?

do u really believe God can heal? do you really believe God can mend ur marriage? Do u really believe God can restore ur ruptured relationship? do u really believe God can complete a makeover of ur mind, emotions and spirit? do u really believe u can change with the help of the Holy Spirit or r u destined 2 stay the same because of ur unbelief?

from the mind and mouth of the Master, we are encouraged 2 know that not just some things, or the things we are comfortable with or the things we like at any given moment and time, but all things are possible to those who believe! all things! do u believe that? all things!

the person u just walked out on, all things! the job u feel like giving up on, all things! the family member for whom u feel there is no hope, all things! look at urself n the mirror, thats right even u, all things!

whatever area it is of ur life that came 2 mind as u read this, by the power of the Holy Spirits leading, know with assurance and excitement that God can change it, if u only believe!

i dont know about u 2day, but i want 2 believe it can happen! i want 2 believe it can change! i want 2 believe i can change! i want 2 believe all things r possible! i want 2 believe!

can u imagine what kind of life u could live, and what kind of blessing u could b, if u only believed!... well, the next verse, verse 25 says that a miracle happened because somebody believed!

ur miracle is awaiting u 2day, if u just believe!

as we close out this year of '08 and the disappointments that u experienced, i am believing with u n '09 that ur miracle is going 2 happen! i believe with u and 4 u that what did not happen 4 u this year, will happen n a greater way next year! ur best is yet 2 come n u aint seen nothin' yet, just believe!

repeat this after me and then plant it n ur heart! Lord, i believe! Lord, i receive! amen! so let it b!

agape,

pastor p

oh yeah, and by the way, I BELIEVE!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

How 2 Handle Ur Heart During The Holidays

this is a season that is bipolar for many. yes, bipolar. we see signs of jolly everywhere we look but inward we have no joy. we hear jingles of happiness everywhere we go but inward we are sad and depressed.

this season is propagated as one big party, yet for many it is the darkest time of the year. 80% of all suicides occur between Thanksgiving and New Years. 75% of all heart attacks occur between Thanksgiving and New Years. The divorce rate rises and the incarceration rate rises between Thanksgiving and New Years because people do not understand how to handle their hearts during the holidays.

its not about another party, another drink or another romantic tryst. its not about what gifts you get or where you go, for you will still be the same person on the inside no matter what you receive or where you end up.

the problem with most of us is trilogistic (ha! i made up my own word! lol!) in nature. according to A. Louis Patterson, Jr., we wrestle with life. the noise of life, the hurry of life and the crowds of life. we are afraid to be quiet (silent), to be still and to be alone (single). we are afraid of this because of what we see in the mirror and know in our heart. simply put, we cant stand ourselves and like the verse says, we will 'condemn' ourselves in the heart. so then we try and fill the void with noise, hurry and crowds.

we cant stand and dont like ourselves because of who we are, where we are and what we do. in other words, we dont like our 'self', our situation or our sin.

we always find something about ourselves not to like. even those of us with God complexes have to admit, there is that thing about us we do not like.

we always find something about our situation about ourselves that we do not like. cant you hear yourself saying, i should have been farther along in life than this. or, i don't deserve this. or, i'm better than this. all because we do not like our situation.

we always find something about our sin that we do not like. have you ever knelt or sat down to pray and the enemy brings to your memory something you did that was displeasing to God? have you ever had flashbacks of past actions or thoughts. deeds that you have asked for forgiveness and have moved on from, sin.

stop condemning yourself and begin to cultivate confidence in your heart vs 21.

now, i can hear you thinking.... well, pastor p, how is this done? glad you asked...

the text gives us a number of ways to handle our hearts during the holidays...

1. replace lies with truth ...vs 19

the mind was made for truth.

unfortunately we live lives of fantasy over and beyond truth. we give more time to games shows, soap operas, dramas, comedies and cartoons than we do the Word and worship.

Jesus says
"I am the way, THE TRUTH, and the life..." John 14:6

"and you shall know THE TRUTH, and THE TRUTH shall set you free" John 8:32... if you want to be 'free' in your life, in your mind, in your emotions... know the truth!

give most of your hearts time this season to the Savior not Santa! God not gifts! the Master not money! the Prince of Peace not parties! .... so many of us are 'passing life by looking for life!'

as a matter of fact, if you've got somebody in your life who is constantly playing the lie role... replace them with the truth!

2. rest in His presence ...vs 19

the spirit was made for God

resting (communicating) with God is the power source to our lives. it goes beyond talking to Him, but allowing Him to talk to us...
"be still and know that I am God!" Psalm 46:10

the spirit was not made for another party! the spirit was not made for another dose of fantasy! the spirit was not made for another 'roll in the hay!'... the spirit was made for relationship with God!

i know some people who just cannot be still in His presence! just last week someone came knocking on my door, wanting to 'hit the town' because, and i quote, they were 'bored!'

that might be a sign that you need to sit still and rest in His presence!

3. recognize that God is greater ...vs 20

in mathematics there are many symbols... plus, minus, equal... but my favorite is GREATER THAN!

guess what, God is GREATER THAN anything or anyone in your life! He always 'tips the scales' in your favor!

God is GREATER THAN... your bills! your ailment! your worries! your job! your child! your husband! your wife! your problems! your broken dreams! your busted desires! .... you've heard it before, if your problem is not bigger (greater than) God raising a dead Jesus from the grave, He has already proven He can handle it! HE IS GREATER THAN!

do not let any-one or any-thing handle you heart in contrast to the Word! when you let God handle your heart, He's also got your back!

during this holiday season, and every other season of your life, you don't have to have another drink or find another party or lay down with another person to find peace and joy. it is in how you handle your heart. handle your heart with confidence and watch God do the rest!

agape

pastor p

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

everything

2 corinthians 1:2 our God gives you everything you need, makes you everything you are to be - the message bible

i know, i know... to all you 'backseat' doctors and nurses, i should be in the bed and asleep if not just resting after being released from the hospital today BUT i was awakened and summoned to let this one flow... i tried to turn back over but... i tried to take a bathroom break and shrug it off but... i tried to raid the fridge (tony and those frosted flakes were callin my name... al! ....al!) and go back 2 bed but...

so since im here, up and typing here is whats in my spirit... i fell asleep praying, thanking God for the day, the events this weekend and my life. in that, i saw off my mom and lil sister back to houston, noted and thanked God for all who reached out, called, texted, emailed and did anything for me while i was going thru this weekend and last night... i am so sentimental, emotional, thankful and greatful for many things, but most importantly, relationship.

i am thankful for relationships on all levels. aquaintances, friendly, familial and personal.

while talking to a pastor friend of mine on saturday night, supporting each other in sermon preparation and encouraging each other for sunday morning, he shared with me this scripture. 2 corinthians 1:2 in the message bible.

well, needless to say, i viewed all events this weekend thru the positive prism of this scripture. God gives us everythng we need and makes us everything we are to be. wow! simply wow! what a positive, affirming, reaffirming and confirming scripture.

it is a statement of surety. it is a statement of certainty. what God has for me it is for me. whom God has for me to be, i will become. i have it all. i am goin to be all.

i can be sure that whatever transpires in my life, i am SURE God is going to give me what i need! no doubt, no defeat (in the words of my father... no negotiation, debate or discussion!). its a done deal. he will give what i need. i got what i need, because ive got him. i do not just have the resource, but i a connect with the source himself!

i can be sure that whatever transpires in my life, i am CERTAIN Godis going to make me who i am to be. i will transform. i will come into my own. you will mature into the man God has for you to be. you will grow into the woman God has for you to be. i am glad that it is God and not i, that will perform and bring to pass what he has put in me.

well, my spirit and thoughts expanded into the realm of interpersonal relationships between men and women in particular.

three things just kept ringing in my spirit and the bell got louder as the night got older... in a nutshell and outline form, here is what is in my spirit mind...

God will give... everything that i need
resources that will sustain / for what you need to accomplish

God will give... everything that i want
relationship that is specific / for you to you

God will give... everthing that i am to do
reason that is significant / for the specific relationship / for his sovereign will, wants and design

this is played out in the opening pages of Genesis in the garden with adam and eve.

resources. everything i need. God gave adam a garden. an entire area filled with resources. God gave adam animals, trees and land. each supporting and sustaining the life of the other. each interdependent on the other. the land fed the trees and the animals. the trees fed the animals and the man. and then the cycle comes full circle and commences again. it is what i like to call 'circular support.' each kept giving to the gain of the next. adam had all he needed to support himself and then some, including his future.

men, here me now. God gives what we need not just for us, but to support our future. the resources are for us and for beyond us. he had enough for himself and for whom God was about to send him and for what they were both assigned to do.

relationship. everything i want. God gave adam eve. note God did not give adam samantha or nicole. God gave adam eve. eve was specifically for adam. adam had it all in the garden God gave, except the intimate interpersonal relationship one needs with another in order to become all that they are to be. remember, the bible says in genesis that eve was to be adams help meet, help mate, a mate who helps.

note: sometimes in life, whom we so desire and are focused on 'being there' for us may not just be whom God has in mind and in store to 'be there' for us. so many times we bump heads with God because of our selfish desires and limited vision for our lives. we so often live in the now and the sensual. those things we can see, feel, taste and hear. however, God works in the spiritual, knowing whats best beyond our selfish senses. sometimes he will take somebody out of our lives in order to accomplish his will in our lives. he may bring them back or he may not. in the meantime, we are to remain faithful and stay righteous, just as adam did, until God moves again. then we are to be receptive and excited about what he does in our lives. whether it is to reconnect or to release, it is our responsibility to recieve his will for our lives.

God gave adam eve, who had the spirit and skill, as a matter of fact, the right spirit and requisite skill sets to be what adam needed her to be. there is someone out there who is a compliment to you and not a competition. there is someone out there who is a support and not strain. there is someone out there who is an encourager and not an endangerer. there is someone out there who will route for you, cheer for you, talk you up and push you along. there is someone out there who will lift you and not let you fall. there is someone who will respect you and not disrespect you. there is someone just for you.

reason. everything i am to do. God gave adam and eve a reason. together they were to tender the garden, be fruitful and multiply and have constant, intimate relationship with God himself. now this for us today is not about the technical specific instructions as much as it is to find your place in life with another whom God has given you to accomplish the assignment God has given you both.

in a larger sense, we are all to do and be what both adam and eve were. we are to first be responsible with what God has given us. we are to multiply, grow or mature what God has given us, outside and inside of us. we are treasure, invest and relish in the relationship we have with him as well, primarily.

i am thankful for the opportunities in my life to do just these things with whom i was in relationship with. i long and look forward to be able to share and give in this type of relationship even now. when it happens, it is goin to be on and poppin! ...me and her, like thicke, u got it, i got it, we got that magic yeah! (gotta be up on it to know what that is! ha!)

i am back to where i started now... God gives you everything you need, makes you everything you are to be.

everything means lacking nothing. nothing. no - thing and no - one.... there is so much i want to say about this, but just not in this note. though like general patton, i shall return. sleep is creeping up on me now. time for a breathing treatment as i watch the end of law & order and doze off into the early morning night. i hear the sheep now...

goodnite all. goodnite love.

agape,

pastor p